Chemical Reaction

I can't believe you diluted my weakest point through a chemical
encounter between my lips and my lungs while the different tastes and
kinds kidnap my taste buds intoxicating my tongue, gathering my
intelligence to burn it into ashes, right threw a wicked process reacting
to the after effects well aware of the causes. The garage doors that
hide my pupils lose grip slowing down the rhythm of my heart making the
count skip. Subtracting my senses from 5 to 4, the music become
electromagnetic volts, 4 to 3 everything speeds up and my eyes begin to
bleed, 3 to 2 all clumsy feeling vibrant as a drill while it screws, 2
minus 1 less sensational cravings at my best, 1 to none, my world has
spun and I'm  officially gone.

Recent

Got a few things on my mind. Money is a must at this point and school as well, gotta get on my grind a soon as possible. Feeling some type of way, but i seen it coming, it's like this year has been on repeat, Like if it was trying to teach me a lesson or something. -_-' . Shit after all i think I've learned already. I just gotta work on a few things. My time will come. I have been reading this awesome book in spanish called " El Alquimista" ( The Alchemist ) by Paolo Cuelho. This book i recommend, it's an awesome book and it has thought me a lot of things. Honestly i lxve poetry but I'm not to much of reader; but i must say this book has changed my life. " Follow your dreams and the world will work with you" .

Last night

Well, good morning must i say; Just got out the shower a few minutes ago and now eating some of the best cereal ever recently added to my "favorite cereal" list "miny wheat" x ) . Last night was horrible. I'm not sure if i seen it coming but it hit me hard. Couldn't sleep at all, my mind was somewhere else. I kept moving back and forth all over my bed, i felt incomplete after all. I txted some of my close girl friends around 2am, and i let out all my emotions to one of them, while i told the other one what was going on. It helped a lot. Even though i had to force myself to sleep since it was already too late and i had to wake up at 730 am -_- which if you knew me it's WAY TOO EARLY for me. lol. I came to realize a whole bunch of things, i put things together but i was still confused. It was my anger taking over and my real sensitive side kicking in. Right around when i was really bogging out my friend slapped me back to reality with her words and got me back on my feet; It was just one of those nights you dont want to remember and dont want it to happen again. I know I'm missing something but the rush of the thought that i wont find it keeps me like this irregularly. I told my friend i felt that i was kinda weird after all. I looked at the stars and wrapped myself up with the mantle of the night. I fell asleep eventually. I woke up hoping nights like that one does not repeat again. Now still kinda blurry about a few things, but time will tell the rest. Until then i have to keep up with this thing some people call "life" .

Blurry

In my mind everything is blurry I can't seem to tell the difference between what's right nd what's wrong, what's weak and what's strong, a quite view with my queen and my throne, all I see is competition for a love that have grown, I don't want to borrow you,lend you or take you down on a loan, I want you all for me in holidays, weekends, and those days when nobody's home; I don't understand love and love doesn't understand me, all I know is that it could be your worst nightmare or your favorite fantasy, it numbs your senses it makes your reckless and the truth is that it aint free; it shrinks you down, makes you weak and leaves you breathless, however when it's good you feel safe like a baby bird on his mom nest; invincible , cherishing every touch divinely, watching every move precisely , analyze this correctly so it could be done flawless with a touch of fancy .- Kevin Z

Melted iIlusions

Transpire worries with extra dry questions that won't sweat a drop,walking under the rain yet not one wet spot. I'm fearless to what I perhaps haven't met at a checkpoint where I have peeves without pets, realizing that my spoken words didn't mean what I meant; relate actions with effort to assume answers, jumping on the trust train ready to hop off and get on the love bus with the same transfer; our bodies attach mentally due to desires, looking for the hidden flaws without a magnifier lighting up a bunch of ideas not requiring the use of fire using the excuse of always been the opposite of a liar. disable feelings and turn off emotions to avoid broken hearts or any other extortion, flip the switch off located next to the reset button above the replacement heart under the garbage dispenser where disappointments can be discard right across those promises that never break apart. sinking deep where 'forever' has a place to stay and a future destination, masturbating thoughts for planned penetrations looking forward to long-term durations of intimate sessions. contaminating wishes that pollute a sane mind with a mixture of illegal substances combined, laying in a way that the six becomes a nine and the world is just a playground where the sun comes out to shine while the moon works on the other side doing overtime. - Kevin Z.

Inspired by beauty

It was the way you first touched me that amused me; rough but gentle also aggressive yet not abusive. The sensation was electric with a little acoustic, while the mild language that you spoke was to my ears it's favorite music as you cheer to reproduce what back then was so elusive. It was the manners that you obtained from the trade we made, double sixes on my hand with an ace of spades, a smirk on your face sparkle up while my eyes were blazed, followed up by a prayer before a meal we ate with grace. Previously we made a deal before we met face to face; our minds connected by staring, i made my moves with my eyes while the challenge was pretty daring. I couldn't paint a picture of what you weren't wearing. One touch was enough to predict with a kiss from your mouth that i couldn't resist, you measured my heart when you held my fist, i adjusted your figure to mines to fit right, portrayed as my favorite doll as I the ventriloquist. You were the catcher sending the signals while my next move was not to strike.

WIld

In a pact with the devil overnight i speak my ego to Jesus, drunken words that change over seasons, with promises that lost meaning and reason, swearing to make a point proven, sipping on more alcohol to get things moving. The thoughts squeeze through my brain and screws in, and out for one purpose, seeking for something that provides the needs and services. Renting empty spaces making room for more suffering occupying what's left vacant. Now this 151 mixed the fluids and it's making me feel like I'm fainting. Transporting to another world where wishes are what my conscious is creating, where i discover the date where Adam and Eve started dating. - Kevin Z .

Woke up from a drunken wild night, and this was all in my mind. I just woke up in the wrong house with the wrong people. HUNGOVER! lol . and i was upset. So i let all fall out on my phone. Don't you hate when u wish you wouldn't have drank too much? hehe, lol . that's how i felt. >_<